bAbY_aDoRkAbLe_LuVs_YeW637's Xanga

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Sat, 24 May 2008 21:27:15 GMT

"Happiness is just an illusion caused by the temporary absence of reality."

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 11:19:01 GMT

I just want to be okay. I dont understand how is it that I still love him and want to be with him so much. I miss him so much. I have been crying for hours now and it seems as if I would never stop. I just wish that yesterday never happened. I wish that we just keep trying to make our relationship work. I just wish that you could of made that change for me sooner. I just wish everything was the same again because I missed you so much because I still love you and because I am hurting with or without you. Silly me to rather take the pain than to be without you. I just told you I rather you just let things go when things were already going wrong, but honestly I don't. I just feel so stupid because time after time I gave you chances and really hoped that each time you would show me that you truly loved me by making a change but you never did until now and it seems like its too late. I am not trying to be emo, but no matter how hard I try to forget you, I just cant. I put so much into our relationship and yet I end up with a heartbreak. God tell me what to do. Tell me what I CAN do. I am hurting so bad that I can only say that I am hurting...I am hurting so bad that I can only cry just so...I can at least feel a little numb. I dont want to feel what I feel anymore. Someone please help....

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Sun, 09 Dec 2007 12:10:28 GMT

Wow!!! It's been a long time since I've written in here.

Monday, January 15, 2007

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 21:12:38 GMT

Class of 2007! It is finally here. About 4 more months until I graduate.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 03:29:07 GMT

"Nothing is predestined. The obstacles of your past can become the gateways that lead to new beginnings."

Sometimes I feel so naive. Why do I believe in people who do not believe in themselves or do not even try to better themselves when the opportunity is right in front of them?

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 00:12:42 GMT

College applications are out today. How wonderful! >.<

Monday, August 28, 2006

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 03:02:16 GMT

It has been a while since I have been on this. A lot of things been happening and it's pretty crazy.

First off, I'm a senior already. It seems like it was just yesterday that I was whining about having to be a senior in 3 years, but within a blink I went from a freshmen to senior. Going to go off to college and face the world. It's a pretty scary thought. To be honest, I'm not quite sure if I'm ready but I think I would be okay with the support and love of those who surrounds me. heh'

Anyways, there are many other things that had happened, but I would not like to talk about it on here. I just hope that all goes well in the end. Life is a game of patience.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Thu, 11 May 2006 03:42:28 GMT

I live a life most people dream of.
We live a life most people dream of.

Be grateful.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 02:55:14 GMT

writers block: GOSH!!! Don't you just hate it when you are in a hurry to write an essay but you got writers block? someone shoot me.

"fall on me, tell me everything you want me to be
forever with you, forever in me, ever the same call
on me i'll be there for you and you'll be there for
me forever it's you forever in me ever the same
you may need me there to carry all your weight
but you're no burden i a s s u r e you tide me
over with a warmth i'll not f o r g e t but i can
only give you L O V E" -robthomaseverthesame

>>edit<< i finally came to realize the reason i cannot finish a poem. ha' make everything stop. i dont want to feel the way i do anymore.

Monday, February 20, 2006

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 03:50:38 GMT

I feel special. They were pretty roses so I decided to take a picture because it litterally lasts longer. :0) Thanks James. I love them!

I'm the NERD iN PiNK baby! yeayuh! (don't ask)